Teary eyes when listening to this.

Raihan - Doa Taubat

Dear Allah, i don't deserve to be in Your Heaven.. though, i'm not willing to face hellfire. please forgive all my sins and accept my repentance. as You are the forgiver of big sins.. my sins are like sands scattered along the beach. with Your power, please forgive me, my lord. Oh Allah, please safe us all, from all the wrongdoings and disasters. we are afraid, we really rely on You. strengthen our love towards You. we are Your servants who rely on Your mercy.

A Summary.

truth hurts, but lies are worse. however, sometimes, you are left with no choice but to lie to people over something so as to not hurt their feelings. and it hurts when the feelings of guilt kept haunting you with all the lies that you create.

yes, it does happen every day. and most of the time, without you realising it. 

if something's fated to happen the way you never expect it to be, do accept it with an open heart. 'cos eventually, something better will replace it.

and its just a matter of time. 

and when that day comes, you will get to know the reasons why it didn't happen like the way you want it to be.

some say forgiving people shows that you're weak. but no, it just shows that you're strong enough to fight all your ego.

 one day, you will find your soulmate, the one that is already destined to be with you.

Just let go.

one, i looked back and youre gone

two, what am i supposed to do

three,you want me to let you free

four, i know im such a bore

five,wanted to make you my wife

six, you are unlike other chicks

seven, you were my heaven

eight, but now its too late

nine,girl i hope that you are fine

this song i wrote to you

i hope you like it boo

the words, represents my love for you

you said "bye"

i said "no"

you said "baby let me go"

"take care"

two words from you

i didnt know, 

what was i supposed to do

baby just come back

baby just come back

baby just come back

baby just come back to me

i know you want me

you know i want you

i know you need me

girl i need you too my baby

ten days have passed

just remember 

babygirl, that you are

the best..

the best i ever had.....

Forever late.

believe it or not, i am punctual when it comes to work as compared to school. like seriously. when it comes to being late for school, im the number one student. for the past few days, i came late to school and also for my lecture class. even though im used to coming late for school during secondary school days, that panicky feeling has never fade. its still there and i guess, it will remain there. cant forget those times in secondary school days, sitting in front of the general office during recess and after school, serving my detention. well, look at the good side of it, thats one way to get fame yknow. the reasons for my lateness is myself. eh wait, i mean my itchy hands. i keep snoozing when the alarm rings. and when i finally realise that im gonna be late, then i wake up. gosh! thats one habit that should be thrown away.

as usual, i rushed to school. it feels kinda awkward entering the class when teacher already start the class. but again, thats when you get fame. 'cos my classmates tend to turn their head when theres a little bang sound of the door.

this week, practical was kinda slacking. its more to basic stuffs. and i really find it boring.

oh come on, i wanna some hands on please!

Still considering.

Many has left. More soon. i dont know whether should i be one of them or not. those bunch of friends there are the reasons for my survival, being there since last november. i thought i would only survive there for a month or so. but it turned out its already the fifth month. time flies really fast. Am still considering whether i should resign. Mom and dad kind of asking me to resign upon seeing me coming back home late and the next day morning left for school. they are scared that i may not cope with my studies. dont worry my dear parents. one of my life principle - studies comes first no matter what. i promise i will quit if really i cant cope. i promise. i promise i will study hard and get good results and make you proud of me. 'cos thats the least i can do to make you guys, my mommy and my daddy happy for now. 

and oh ya, dear that specific artist, by acting cool and being arrogant outside, you wont go far.

also, you are just creating a negative impression of yourself.

acting cool is so not cool alright?

i believe that im stronger than i was yesterday. 

Thats life.

life is always this way. when you want it, its not there. but when you think you dont need it anymore, it will come.

im just flesh and bones. im not superman nor superwoman. but i will always be the best i can.

dear paris, i shall visit you one day. 

Headache.

and so, i didnt come to work yesterday afternoon and today morning. for the past few days, this headache is really killing me. it randomly come and go. most of the time, what i felt was being poked by pins. super ouch. i just hope that this is something normal due to lack of sleep and overworked. hopefully its not anything serious. Amin.