That shouldnt be the way!

i used to hope. but not anymore.

believe that good things will always come to those who wait.

will always try my best not to hurt others.

sometimes you just feel like crying some random time.

Unexpected things always happen and most of the time theres no signs to show that it is coming your way. I dare to swear that im just a step away to forgetting you completely. yes, just one step away only. and completely. i have let go of everything and already accept everything with an open heart. but why am i shivering so badly when i saw your name on my notification? why am i feeling like this?! this shouldnt be the way. and i really hate to feel this way. i had a hard time typing this out and also replying to your comments that i feel like breaking down into tears. but no, im strong. anyway bestfriend, i did prayed hard that you would get into the police force for your ns. im sincere in my prayers. really. only Allah knows how sincere i am in every of my prayers that i mention you in it. every single one. i truly know that you wanted police but it seems that Allah know that it would be far far more better if you're in the army. and there you go, you get army. And so in two months time, you will be serving your ns. its during the fasting month right? hope you will enjoy your ns. do take care.